vodka & tonic

I think I have Acclimatized. I no longer feel like fainting when i get up too quickly, although I am feeling a bit whacked today. I think too many vodka's last night didn't help.

in fact, if I wasn't pretty damn sure i wasn't, I'd think I was pregnant. I have that weird feeling of being quite weak and just wanting to sleep. at strange times in the day. And i feel a bit low on energy. But of course I am not. I am on the pill and I only just had my period. I am not. I AM NOT. Please, God, I hope I am not. that would really be bad timing...

Gulp.

i am sweating whilst having a shower.

this is not good.

i need a cold drink.....

i am being stalked. Not in here, this is *still* a safe haven, although it is rather quiet at the moment, but it is here for moments like THIS and right now i need it.

Yes I am being stalked. Or followed might be a better word. Someone I know, who is obviously very bored, keeps following the links off my *other* blog, which has my blogroll for the people I usually read, and reading them too. I don't mind this, as of course they are not *my* blogs and everyeone can read any blog they like, but this person is like family, he is close to me, he is not a blogger and he keeps mailing me and this big group of friends I have on a mailing list about posts from the blogs i read. Does this make sense? He'll write to everyone saying "wow you 've got to read this!" knowing full well I have made a comment on that post, and hence it feels like my comments are no longer private. I know they aren't anyway, as all blogs are public and if i choose to bear my soul I do it knowing full well anyone can read it. But it still feels weird.. Cos now *all* my friends can read them. Which they wouldn't normally. And by sending these mails out, this person is also very clearly telling *ME* that he is reaing my comments. He is making it very clear indeed that he knows where I go, who I read and what I say. Does this make sense? Am i *allowed* to feel this way? Or am I overreacting???

this just keeps getting better. I am now in Intense Period Cramps-land and is incommunicado till it has passed.

thanks for your kind words, I was really pissed off yesterday, but feeling better today. these people are lovely people, and you know, really good, supportive friends, just this one this really gets to me.

Today its sunny and gorgeous and I am all smiles again! :-)

maybe summer is finally here....

i *am* a perfect hostess.. honestly.

On saturday our friends (another couple) came around and as were about to ligth the bbq, we invited them to stay. They popped off home to get some stuff and we started preparing.

Now I don't mind entertaining and I don't mind last minute arrangements and I appreciate not everyone have a fridge full of food and booze, but on saturday we provided a LOVELY meal (a lovely EXPENSIVE meal, may i add) tons of alcohol and all sorts of various snacks, vegatables, burgers, crisps, you name it, and we didn't even get a thanks!!!

I couldn't believe it. They did ring a bottle of beer around (yes WHOLE bottle of beer) and they did provide some interesting conversation, but jesus! what about a "wow thanks that was lovely, we'll have to do that again soon, around ours!"

no. nothing.

I don't know. these people are some of our best friends (I've known them 8 years or so now) and we spend a lot of time with them, but we're always around ours, we always drinks our booze and eat our food and I suppose after 8 years I am starting to get a big sick of it...

am i unreasonable?